A question caught me by surprise-4

“I don’t know!” I shouted in exasperation. “Look, I know Vicky isn’t
perfect. I don’t know if we have a future together, but I feel like if you
love me, you’ll give me a chance to figure it out.”

“If I love you?” Jennifer choked incredulously. “If I love you. Jesus,
Jack, are you fucking blind? I’m in love with you!”

And there it was. There was nothing surprising about it. I knew how
she felt about me. I felt the same way about her and I probably always
had. All it took was my raw, shattered, and infinitely more courageous twin
to say it out loud.

“You’re…in love with me?” I repeated slowly.

“Fuck. I didn’t mean to say that,” my sister moaned. I wasn’t sure
whether or not she meant it.

She drew a long breath, trying desperately to hold onto what little of
her composure remained as she began to explain. “When it was just the two
of us, I didn’t even think about it. I loved you and you loved me and
that’s all there was to it. I just assumed it would always be just the two
of us and that was enough. But when you started seeing Vicky, everything
changed. And I wanted more. And that night, when you and I…for a second
I thought that maybe what I was feeling made sense, that it wasn’t wrong,
that maybe you felt the same way that I did.”