Back into the light

It’s been over a month since I’ve seen him. Our reunion was short lived. Too much time has passed. Too much water under the bridge. People change. What they want and need changes as well. I miss him and the way he made me feel. Before him, I’d been celibate for almost four years. Long story; bad relationship leading to very dark and lonely times. He healed me, brought me back to life and into the light again. Made me whole.

Sexually speaking, he found a side to me I never knew I had. Sex had never been like that before and I’d thought that maybe there was something wrong with me. I’d never felt so alive – or so exhausted! But we can’t be together any more. So now its time to move on, to find someone to love.

In the meantime, I’ve decided not to deny myself the pleasures of the flesh. No more shutting myself away again and behaving like a nun! I went to a friend’s hen party last week and treated myself to a nice little toy. It’s a small, pink egg-shaped vibrator. Soft to the touch with two long prongs which vibrate at different levels. And I’ve decided that tonight, I’m going to take it for a test drive!